see you, soon.

I've determined that if you're leaving a place, you should have this knowledge for a maximum of about 3 months. Leaving a place creates a strange dynamic between you and everything related to your {almost former} home. In the real life scenario of friendships changing, this event puts it in overdrive. Which, as everything in this life, has it's pro's and con's. 


The last few days have been waves of panic, sadness, irritation with myself for leaving a comfortable life mixed with some defeat. Today it just feels exciting and right. The only thing getting me through these goodbyes is that I am ultimately happy with my decision and feel like I will have a wonderful experience. 


I know there are many people who hate goodbyes, and will avoid them at all cost. I totally get it- it is really been difficult to look into supportive faces and know that I won't see them for at least a year. I've been crying... a lot. 


I've made a life here. I have friends that I most definitely consider my family. They aren't easy faces to leave. I love that as you get older, every single stupid cliche comes true (that must mean we are learning something, right?) and I have to say that instead of saying goodbye, I'm just going to say, "see you soon" <3