good, bad.

It's been over a year since I posted. Blogging clearly has died as my thing. Maybe it was never my thing. I appreciate the times I sit down and write, though. Like that last post about being head over heels for Guy. Funny thing is that hasn't changed, and is a lot more confusing and awkward now. He's just not that into me, and I still am into him.

It's good for me to know what it's like to be on the other side of that.

I'm having one of those days where I feel super alone in this world. I know that isn't the case, but who said that I am good at being a rational human being? I also find myself in a cycle of anger again. I thought I was done with this, but man, that anger shit hurts is so accurate for me. I feel attacked, alone, depressed and I respond with anger.

The comforting thing is that it is all so fleeting. One second I can't stop smiling from ear to ear and other times I can't stop being sad about all of the hopelessness swirling around me in this world. I remind myself to take in those moments of being carefree and happy because you just never know how your heart will shift in the next few moments, days, weeks.